barely alive

been quite sometime since ive wrote on my blog. for all of you who are wondering i am currently going through a rough patch in my life. but dont worry with Gods help and guidance i always get through it. worshipping him and putting it in his hands is what he wants me to do. continue to pray for me as i make another journey on my way to becoming a man of God.

as i was reading my bible today nothing was hitting my hurt. i was so emotionally drained from whats going on that even the word of God wasnt jumping out at me.

i sat in my empty apartment asking God for a direction. not to help me but a push. a push in the right direction or path. he quickly gave me a push in the right direction. i picked up my ipod and looked at the screen. it was black. so i hate play. what appeared on the screen was something i hadnt listened to since i was in iraq. here is what played.



let this old life crumble
let it fade
let this new life offer
be your saving grace
let this old life crumble
let it fade, let it fade

there comes a time in everyones life where they are depressed, feeling low, down, and you feel like you cant go on. just remember somebody upstairs (heaven) is looking down on you. he has his hand on your head and is constantly trying to reach for you. but sometimes the weight of the world gets too much. just know God is reaching out to you for one reason and one reason only. so you can rest. life has its toles, troubles, demons and problems. but one thing ive done today is give everything i have to God. its in his hands. why? because i need some rest. some spiritual and faithful rest. God gave it to me in a blink of an eye. in a quick reference of the word "help" to Him was all it took. and he gave me peace and prosperity. i think its so weird how christians get so wrapped up in the word of God that they forget that sometimes you just need to conversate with him. sometimes one word is all it takes.